Posts Tagged ‘rant’

BABALA: MAGULO ANG SEQUENCE.

I never thought I will feel offended, rant and cry over some sick stupid joke by some insensitive people today.

But before I continue, I just want to say that what I’m about to write doesn’t totally define who I really am. This is just a result of being in a roller coaster of emotions, feeling of the offended and yeah, PMS-ing. WANT TO RANT, because I wanna feel better. BIAS to.So, NO JUDGING.

I don’t want to tell you the details of what happened just before I leave the office. But I tell you, what happened earlier was over the limit. BUT, If you are one of those who already know the exact story, you may take my side because you really believe that it was really offensive or you many not and think that I was just being too emotional, immature or whatever.

Let me get this straight. You see, you always put a competition to the story even if the characters don’t want to. Who wanted this kind of set up? Did I chose this? Did I decided for eveyone to be like this? NO. Because even before we knew, it was already the plan! Kung bitter ka sa pupuntaha mo, wag mo kong idamay! To the point na ipapahiya mo ko sa harap pa ng taong kabolahan mo! You may say it was just a joke, but they way you said it in front of us, I knew you meant something.

I get italready, okay? Even before this thing happened. Pero hindi mo na kailangan ipamukha sakin na ikaw yung gusto, na ikaw yung paborito! it wasn’t a big deal to me the way she appreciates you, pero was that joke necessary? Hindi naman ako nakikisawsaw eh. What do you want? what do you need to hear pa? What do you me to feel? Na they will regret the fact that they will lose you over me? Na importante ka at kahit anong gawin ko, I will never replace you in their lives. WELL, FINE! Oo na! Ikaw na! Walang umaagaw sa kanya!

PRESSURE. Hindi pa nga nangyayari at wala pa akong napapatunayan o nagagawa pero parang talo na kagad na ko. Like There was no place for me.

Kung pwede lang kumontra sa lahat ng decisions na nangyayari, matagal ko nang ginawa. But like I said, that was the plan.

STRIKE 2 ka na sa pagka-insensitive mo eh.

I’m fucking tired of this feeling of competition. All my life I have always been trying to prove myself to everyone. Bata pa lang and until now, I am still doing the same. That I need to be best in school because I was with the best students. That I need to join the council just to get noticed.That I can finish college clean even if I’m was in a relationship when everyone predicts you cannot. That I can do household chores when I really can do but other say I can’t do or don’t know how.

I am easily discouraged.
I’m trying. But when I fail, I stop.
That’s who I am.

No one believes in me.
Because for them, what I did was not enough.
So para sakin, what’s the point of trying again?
Eh yung napatunayan mo na na, pero wala paring tiwala sayo.
Suicidal alng diba?

Tao lang ako, hindi ako perpekto.

Nakakapagod din.

Oo, iisang anak nga ako. Pero yung pakiramdam ko parang may isang dosena akong kapatid na kailangan laging maging bestpara lang mapansin at maging paborito ng magulang.

Tapos eto, you always put a competition to everything. I NEVER WANT TO COMPETE. But it seems like you always bring it to the table.

Why can’t I just be accepted for who I am? For what I can only do? For what I’m not good at?

I just want piece. I just want to work without unhealthy pressure inside my head.
Yun lang naman eh.

Pero that’s life. Bukod sa life is unfair eh, you can’t please everybody.

Tinatamad na ko. Kasi medyo nalabas ko na kanina. Pero siguro kung kanina ko nasulat mo, baka medyo mas maintindihan nyo.

Kbye.

(n.) books

Posted: July 10, 2012 in Random
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For those who do not read: It’s a total waste of money and a waste of time.

For me? It’s a treasure.

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I don’t give a damn about what you think!

You don’t have a say to anything at all. It’s my life, not yours.

You don’t have the right to dictate me with what I want to do with my money because basically, it’s not your money I’m spending and CLEARLY it’s none of your business. Back off!

KTHXBYE. (c)

Most of the tim…

Posted: July 8, 2012 in Random
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Most of the time, I encounter post/rants having problems with “that”. And here I am, not having the same problems as they have – not even having a thing to worry. Pero parang I’m still not contented with what I already have. Always asking for more.

I’ve been praying for this every time I get hurt. And now, God has finally given me this – and I guess more than pa when it comes to that matter. But I feel like I’m still complaining. 

Naghahanap ng stress, teh?  

Sad to say this, but there’s no passion – well, as of now. Ewan ko. Ang BIPOLAR lang.

I admit, it kinda starts to worry me. Or epekto lang to ng sinasabi nilang ganun. 

But I’ll try not to over think this, ‘cos I frequently do now.

Haaay, ewan.

Anti Spoiled Brat Rant

Posted: June 13, 2012 in Random
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Nabwi-bwiset talaga ko sa mga batang spoiled brat. Yung lagi na lang iiyak makuha lang ang gusto.

SORRY, pero I’m losing my patience to those kinds of kids. Mainly because nung bata naman ako, hindi ako ganun. I’m not comparing myself to anyone nor questioning the way of how parents raise their kids. Pero kasi NASA DISIPLINA KASI YAN. Hindi sa lahat ng oras ibibigay mo lahat ng hinihingi nya kasi ayaw mo lang makarinig ng iyak o ayaw mo lang kulitin ka. Na every iyak, automatic ibibigay mo na. Ang tendency kasi, malalaman ng bata kung paano ka uutuin. (Sorry for the word) Hanggang sa masanay na siya na umiyak na lang ng umiyak kasi nahuli na nya ang kiliti mo.

Ngayon, kung bata pa lang hindi mo na ite-train yan at hindi ipapaintindi sa kanyang hindi lahat ng gusto nya ay masusunod, well, good luck na lang sayo kapag tanda nito. Bahala ka ma-stress.

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